Break Through

I just finished my first yoga class ever, and I feel phenomenal. I walked in not knowing how I'd do or if I'd like it, and left feeling stronger than I have in ages, and feel more confident in my athletic abilities. When I first arrived, I made sure to talk to the instructor and get any newbie pointers she felt I'd need. She literally looked me up and down and said she thought I'd do just fine. In the back of my mind, my self doubt screamed, "ya right!" But, I figured if anything, I'd just take breaks if I needed to. Well... I didn't need to. Now, I can guarantee my poses looked no where near as pretty as some of the other people's, but... I could at least get to them.

My legs, back and core were exhausted by the end, and my muscles definitely started shaking, but, I made it! After class was over, the instructor actually pulled me aside and said she was very impressed with how well I did for my first time ever. And to my surprise, I actually agreed and there was no self doubt on my part. I'll definitely be incorporating yoga into my weekly schedule from now on.

And, I don't know if it was my success in class, but something finally clicked for me as I walked past a window when I got back to my apartment complex... I will never be 135 pounds and "thin," but I actually do love the massive amount of muscle and strength in my legs and butt. Yes, I will always be thicker and have a hell of a time finding jeans that fit through the ass and don't fall of my waist, but being strong and muscular is worth it. For the first time in a while I actually thought to myself, I like the way I look. And let me tell you, that's a great feeling.

This Month's Results

Well, this month wasn't as bad as I thought. Though my weight did basically nothing (again), I did drop 25% body fat, and am down another 3.5 inches. So, at least there is some sort of result.

I have a great motivator that keeps telling me to change it up, mix things around; and I think I'm finally ready for it. I've realized if I am truly going to get those last 11 pounds, it's time to try something new. And, the more I focus on planning ahead and making the change regardless of how different it is, the more apt I'll be to do get it done. So, with that being said yoga on Saturday!

Blogging...

I'm absolutely terrible at continually updating this thing, but I think it's because I'm having such a hard time with these last 10 pounds! It doesn't seem to matter how hard I work out, or how perfectly I eat, I just can't get there. I find myself getting more and more frustrated and at the end of the day the last thing I want to do is write about my non-success.

I meet with the trainer (again) tonight and we'll see what kind of results in body fat and inches this month actually brought, but I have a feeling I'll be about the same as last month. As much as I want it, I'm so frustrated with the plateau, I just can't find any additional motivation. It's getting old very, very quickly...