Typically my posts are what I would call 'upper' posts, but this blog was intended to cover the good and the bad of my journey; so, some of the ugly needs to spill out every now and again...
This week, I have run into a big, fat wall at a sprinting pace. I know everyone goes through the ups and the downs, and apparently, this week is a HUGE down for me. I haven't gained any weight or had any injuries... I just feel off my game. Junk food is screaming my name, I'm tired and grouchy; I hate getting up for work every day and am stressed about finances. With all that being said, even though I have no motivation to do anything, the one thing I have stuck to is the gym. In the past I would immediately turn to food, stuff myself with an entire package of Oreo cookies and cry myself to sleep for a week straight, but not this time.
Though the last thing I feel like doing is finding motivation for the gym, I've forced myself to push forward. And, every night when I leave, I feel a little better than I did when I walked in. Life outside of the gym is still a struggle, but at least I'm coping in a healthy way this time. Still, I feel I need to re-find myself. What do I want the next few months to look like? What about the next year? Where do I need to go with my career, my bills, my relationships? I know all of these things are adversely affecting my health, my workouts and my food choices/intake. Stress is never something we want to deal with, but I know if I don't start cleaning up the little piles in my life, I won't hit any additional fitness goals, and I surely won't make it to competition. Ugh, hopefully I can get this sorted out soon though, because I'm sick of feeling down, frustrated and unmotivated.
Babe, there is no hopefully. You will get through this. Look at all your progress! You pushed through one big plateau. If you can do that, you can get past little stressors.
ReplyDeleteBut I do think you need a friend support system, outside of your trainer for your fitness goals. We need to get together! That way when oreos are calling to you, you can text me and we can get through it. Love you girl. :)
I can definitely relate! The last two weeks of my prep have been dominated by "The Nothing". It has been a struggle to maintain my focus, power through my workouts, and do what needs to be done.
ReplyDeleteI always find that it helps to do something that has absolutely NOTHING to do with prepping for a show. It gives me a chance to give myself a break!
Hang in there!!
T.